Had another one of my military dreams again. America did a draft of everyone between the ages of 18 to like 30 and they tested us in our sleep to see where our strongest ability was. Then they split us up into groups. One of them was a sensitive type of group who aided everyone, there were like three others. And then there was my group who were the protectors. And as we were being transported to training it told us don't be a hero, we aren't there to save another protector, they should be trained enough to save themselves. (To me this just sounds like the divergent series or the Percy Jackson series). Anyways, I couldn't see at first like in all my dreams that involve things like this. There has to be some underlying message there. I couldn't tell If I was doing good. Then it came to us doing a drill, shooting zombie like creatures, I don't remember if I was doing good lol then it was graduation time, I was by myself as usual. I'm just not a people person. I watched around as everyone was chatting and being happy and idk it just didn't seem right. Then there were several incidents that were.... Drills I'm guessing and they were testing us to see how fast our instinct was , as usual in my dreams I couldn't move my fucking feet. So I stood there. I also was dropped into a cage where this nasty creature was, goal was to follow it and kill it, but keep my space so it didnt know I was coming, I failed. Lame. But anyways skipping to the end we won some kind of war and they were like lena what are you going to do now, and I said I'm going to go help rebuild the middle East, which I really do want to do, I was balancing a mini baseball bat on my right hand, bouncing it on the ground and twirling it around it was fascinating. Butttt yeah that's it.
dear brain ,
please please please please please stop thinking I can't handle any of this anymore. please I'm begging you. In tonight's dream it was weird because at first it was me in my room then it switched tell me being taken away in brought into a school it's kind of confusing cause College is a choice I shouldn't be in school and I saw people i went tohigh school with and they're forcing me to go back to school which is I guess one of my biggest fears and I was like college is a choice I don't have to be here you're holding me against my will and it wasn't like the government i guess it was kind of like aliens and I was like im going two make your life a living hell every single day until you release me to my freedom not knowing what's on the other side but anything would be better than not being able to think for yourself. I wanted out, even if it meant being dead. Anything was better than being helpless. But as I'm typing this it reminded Me of RoboCop , the scientist said the guy had the illusion of free will, since they were basically controlling him the entire time which is just.... Inhumane that a human would want to do that, but hey their are some people like it.. Or maybe its my subconscious telling me that my little idea for the future (creating a program to breed and help raise the generation that can save the planet and the human race), is something out of my control. Idk maybe I just have a crazy imagination who knows.
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